Hi Doug
I used to roll my own drum tracks from scratch. These days I do import pre-made midi tracks as teaching-aids and inspiration within a style. Importing into groove agent makes sense, but I prefer an interface which includes it’s own midi-section organizer - like EZDrummer, or what I use now, which is Toontrack Superior. Kim is IMO the ‘man’ when it comes to hacking into those, and I bet he’ll have input on how you could make those new sounds of yours fit into a great accessible format
I don’t get on someone’s case without putting mine on the table:
“I am Glyn Powell, I’m a silly bugger,” This derived from my Northern-English Grandma’s “You’re a cheeky little silly bugger, but your MY silly little bugger, you little bugger, so lets have a game of checkers.” ‘Bugger’, though it has intimate connotation, is a common Northern English term of endearment with no connotation of bum-sex. ‘Sod’ can also be so used, but includes connotations of ‘bad’.
At the time I WAS Little. OFTEN Cheeky. SOMETIMES silly, though 99% of the time that was the ignorance of a seven year old. Then again, in my Grandma’s ‘Cubase Project’ they were never on ‘separate tracks’ in her ‘arrange window’.
They were already rendered to stereo: “Hehehe-comehere’n’givegran’ma-aluvelykiss-yersillylittlebugger-hehe-yelittlebugger-heheh-WHO’S a sillylittlebugger?-YOUR’Easillylittlebugger-hehe.” Actually MONO - it arrived less like a sequenced or balanced mix, and more like a truck dumping sand or shale in the front yard of my young mind.
It was not delivered with my father’s surgical precision of life-threatening abusive-messages. “Home by 10PM. Did I say 11:00? Did you say ‘yes’ when I said ‘Back by 10’? What time is it now? If you knew you were coming back at 11, why did you say ‘yes’ to 10? Are you just a stupid dolt or are you a little liar? If you think you can lie to me, you’re not just a liar - you ARE a stupid dolt. Well? WHY? I’m Waiting” … [me=silent because trying to process a loaded statement] … “Thinking hard how you’re going to try to get out of it? Aren’t you? As usual.”
The MONO Mix-Down was, in a loud monotone voice,“You’re a Stupid-Lying-LittleDolt-TryinToGetOutOfEverything-You’reNoGood.” As a mashed message, it had no possibility of redemption, and to make it worse, he’d given me the track-by-track, with ‘Shout’ and ‘Evil-eye-glare’ as insert effects. He’d also insisted that I try and fail to sing harmony. Note-by-note coaching in singing the “I am worthelss” song.
Therefore, Doug, I wanted to check with you: Is that self-putdown you wrote just a casual/fun thing which may or may not be applicable at all, in parts, to some times in your life? Or To what extent have you been going through some of your life telling yourself that? And To what extent might others who are connected with you have been going through THEIR lives telling you, and/or other people close to them, such negative messages? And did they learn when it is right to stop it and to say some of the more realistic and nice things?
I have experienced you as modest regarding your own skills, but never heard you talk like you did up there, and therefore did not wish to risk just ‘walking by’ without making some comment, or checking that it be just light self-humour and nothing more.
I do not aim to pry, nor that you should share private matters.
The most I ask is that you witness the following simple and obvious facts:
You are proven to have control, in the service of, for example, your health when you wake up/notice/take inventory. Your variance from your ideal in matters of your eating and drinking became the territory of a project most noble and an example to us all. Your Weight-Thread got deleted, but this project’s effects, not just on you, but on others who read it and changed their behaviours thereby, are fresh in our minds and bodies as your work became the spearhead and guiding light of our common wish for longevity with quality.
Witness also, please, that there is, on this forum, a greater-than-10-year ongoing public record of your competence, integrity and commitment to develop, in musical, technical, intellectual, emotional and spiritual matters. Any ONE of those, though admirable in itself, might have been a personal and positive ‘wolf note’ or one-trick-pony’s trick. The sum, however, and moreover, the way they are combined, uncontradictorially, across your works, though I have only experienced the written and the recorded, cannot be other than Tip-of-the-Iceburg or Smoke-of-the-Volcano. You have maintained this record, not only in fair weather, but also in foul times, times of challenge both respectful and vile. These is output and expression of one who is infinitely more than that one-liner I read. One whose greater whole renders that one-liner most feeble - at best, temporary and out dated, and at worst, a ‘whiplash’ of sadness or frustration, even if the one-liner had origins in you in the first place.
The contradiction between your comment and the man I know was too great for me to just pass by.
Best wishes
Glyn
Edited one time for spelling and tidying.