Many of you may relate to this as well, which is why I decided to post it.
As many here do, I want to turn my musical efforts into something real. Something that provides for me for the rest of my life. I want it to be my job, my love and my art at the same time. But I have found something seriously lacking these past couple of years, and for the life of me, I couldn’t figure out what it was.
So I asked. Some people may call it praying to God or Gods, contacting your power animal or spiritual guide, or just a higher form of the self that is present in times of need. Having this awareness, I am usually able to get any answer I need to my questions. Most of the time though, I don’t know what the question is.
This time I did and I got the answer I truly needed to make it all happen. It’s not anything arcane and tenuous. I’m long finished with the head in the clouds new age BS that never accomplishes anything. I’m looking for logical, real life answers.
The thing is, I really want to have the success in music. I see it, I have the ability, I now have the gear to at least get me on that road, so what was missing?
The reason I asked, was a lack of motivation. It seems just a daily grind to do music, write it, arrange it, go through all the technical details to make it sound as good as possible, etc… I have a strong will, so I can power through this process and keep working on projects, wrapping them up one at a time. But you can see that there is something wrong with this. To me it seems robotic and repetitive, and it takes much longer than I would normally like to complete these projects.
So, with that synopsis in mind, my question was. What am I missing? Why am I not immersed in music? Why is this not the Eden that I imagined?
The answer was simple.
Apparently I have it, but it is dormant and needs a trigger to wake up. So I have all the physical tools, the studio and the gear, the mental tools, the knowledge to write, record and arrange a good song, and the desire to keep grinding away at it. But desire is not enough for me apparently. I need to wake up this hunger.
So I’m asking you all… have you found a way to do this in yourselves? Have you turned your desire or inspiration into an insatiable need to accomplish something? If you did and were a success at it, I’m sure many of us are leaning on the edge of our seats hoping to find just “how” to awaken this beast?