I wrote the first line two weeks ago when I was awake at 2am.
The second line came a week later during another insomnia session
Last night I stayed up and finished reading Charles Yu “How to Live Safely in a Science Fictional Universe”
It’s about a son looking to connect with a missing father and a disassociated mother
He repairs time machines for a living.
His time travel is based on grammatical tense moods. Imperative, indicative and subjunctive. Especially the subjunctive (contra-factual e.g. If I were you - but I’m not really)
You can’t visit the future, only the past which cannot be changed - that’s memory.
We humans are slow memory (time travel) devices.
The speed of thought is slow - much slower than the universe around us. Conscious thought is much slower than unconscious (Benjamin Libet). - free will is the illusion our consciousness perpetuates to explain why we do what we do
We time travellers revisit the important days of our lives - almost all are relations to family
but occasionally, rarely, if we’re lucky - how we feel about the past changes
I finished the book at 1:30am this morning
sat down and finished the poem
it just came out